They don't treat me like I'm good or matter or things so much, anymore.

An older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with is supposed to have it smooth partly so it doesn't ruin our "relationship," but it seems she partially gave up on something or was blocked or would be otherwise.. even after that.  It's like she saved money for someone, like a child, and used it on herself since she had it anyway, not exactly but because she had to or someone else made it happen or did it, perhaps.